I liked this image:
"The thing about being catapulted into a whole new life--or at least, shoved up so hard against someone else's life that you might as well have your face pressed against their window--is that it forces you to rethink your idea of who you are."Been there. It makes no difference whether what I see is beautiful or horrifying, I can't help but change.
This book made me think about who I was before I met B, but it's probably more interesting to say a bit about who I am after B. While with B, I knew I was anxious about trying to prove myself, to make things work, and to gain acceptance, and frustrated by failing time and time again for nearly nine years. But I had no clue how pervasive the abuse and resulting anxiety or how far-reaching its effects, until it was all over.
In the last 20 days or so, I have felt an incredible calm, a clarity of mind, and watched in surprise as many elements of my life have fallen into place with minimal effort. What a welcome change! My friends have observed that I seem relaxed. I'm sleeping better than I have in years. My mind feels sharp.
Said another way, I feel like myself again. I am so relieved. So happy. I had gotten to a place where I thought I had lost any connection to this version of myself. How lucky am I to have found my way back?