Monday, March 9, 2015

Running the Boardwalk

While I was away in Tokyo, Austin constructed the boardwalk trail at Lady Bird Lake. I followed the progress pictures and looked forward to the day that I'd get to check it out in person. This was when moving back to Austin was still very far from a reality, but I was holding out hope.

Hitting the hike and bike trail was something I did my very first weekend in Austin, but I didn't make it out to the boardwalk until the first weekend in January. It was a beautiful, but very cold day and I remember it clearly because that Friday night I had gone on a first date that had left me smitten. I picked up the message asking for a second date while I was shuffling along the boardwalk (you'll hear more about that story line in a future post).

Then I took this picture and stood there and soaked up the moment. The cold crisp air, the sun, the waterbirds fighting over bread crumbs, the sounds of the (English!) conversations of people passing by and water. It was one of those I made it to Austin, I made it happen (!) kind of moments. Even on the not so good days I find myself stopping to think of how grateful I am for this change in my life and how very lucky I am to be here.

And the boardwalk lived up to expectations.

Wednesday, January 7, 2015

2014 - The Year I Stopped Waiting

In 2014, I experienced an amazing adventure that pushed me to my limits. Working in Tokyo, in the legal department of a Japanese trading company, gave me an invaluable practical education in global business, but living in Japan and surviving the crushing loneliness of that experience was the hardest thing I've ever done. It changed me.

Then, I discovered why the boyfriend that had always said he wanted to marry me never proposed. Surviving that heartbreak changed me too.

That's when I stopped waiting.

For the boyfriend to propose.
For the husband to buy a house with.
For the law firm to send me back to the US.
For things to get better.

In the space of a couple months at the end of the year, I moved to the city that's always made my heart skip a beat, started a new (better!) job with a perfect office location, and bought a beautiful, brand new house in my favorite neighborhood.

I have never felt more at the end of my rope than I did in 2014, but I have never had things come together as quickly as they did in those final few months. You know how people like to say it gets the darkest just before dawn? Yeah, that.

Things have gotten so much better, despite that I had lost hope, and, for that, I wake up each day feeling incredibly lucky. 

A heartfelt thank you to those of you who reached out to encourage me while I was in Japan. Thank you for helping me get here.

Friday, October 3, 2014

Fresh Start

Dear Readers,

Thank you for taking the time to follow my experience in Japan. Special thanks to those of you who have been following along since law school. Your comments and notes of encouragement have meant the world to me and I truly enjoy interacting with you in this space and over email.

Unfortunately, it has come time to restrict the readership of this blog or delete it entirely. By way of explanation, my abusive ex-boyfriend has continued to visit this blog frequently since I stopped replying to his emails and text messages months ago. Maintaining this blog runs counter to my goal of cutting off contact with him and knowing that he's monitoring what I write (together with someone's recent, unauthorized attempts to log on to my Dropbox account) has made me fear for my safety and security. Both problems can be solved by limiting access to the blog or abandoning it.

I hate to allow him to indirectly intimidate me, but safety is a priority. I'm still figuring this out and will post an update when I choose a path forward.

In the interim, I would be delighted to keep in touch with you over email or Twitter. If you are trying to contact me at my mobile number, don't be alarmed (or offended) if you haven't heard back from me. I relinquished my Blackberry to the firm when I quit and, with it, the personal phone number that I have been using for years so I don't have access to any messages you might have left for me.

Thank you for your support.